Looking Into Glass

A journal of questions, thoughts, ideas, and even a few answers that have shaped my journey so far. I seem to keep coming back to the same 2 questions: Who is God? Who am I?

Monday, July 09, 2007



Many of you who read this blog know of my present unemployment situation. The following comes from this season of life where we are living with uncertainty and yet with confidence in God. (Though it is sometimes shaken)


A GOD MOMENT

Waiting, waiting
Looking and listening,
A phone call, an email
Some kind of sign that I am in the process,
That God is at work –
Behind the scenes,
In the dark.

Isn’t that place – the dark –
Where God does His best work?
A growing fetus,
A planted seed,
A dead Jesus.

But nothing, only silence.

Where is the contraction to push out the child?
Where is the rain to water the soil?
Where is the angel to move the stone?

I don’t need an answer
I just need to know that behind the emptiness of this season
There is a purpose being fulfilled,
A plan being accomplished.

Where there’s a plan, there’s hope
That this is just a season.
It too shall pass.
It awakens a deeper faith
That will trust God for one more day.

2 Comments:

  • At 5:17 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    What is it that we are to learn (or grow) when God seems to be silent? Even Jesus on the cross, cried out asking why God the Father had forsaken Him? True, God may not have been able to look upon Jesus while He had our sins on Him. The point is, even Jesus knew the bleakness and emptiness we feel, when it seems God won't answer.
    Then there is the jealousy of hearing other people say (and sincerely believe) that God spoke to them and showed them the way. I know God answers prayers and we don't always like the answers. I also know that the reason I don't always know God's will in my life is my lack of drawing near to Him. Does He use these times of silence to truely get my attention? Does He use my bleakest moments to show me of my great need for Him?
    All I know for sure is, He keeps taking me back, even though I deserve it not. My shame and pride makes me fail to call on Him in my need, because I have not called on Him in the good times and been grateful enough. I know I can never earn any of His Goodness and yet my shame makes me keep from Him myself in my needs. I foolishly try to handle it on my own, not because I can do it better (NOT); but because I feel so unworthy to come to Him when I have not been there all along. I do not want to be a "fox-hole" Christian and yet time and again, I find myself there. Thankfully, He continues to grant Grace, Mercy, and Forgiveness and I can come to Him every time I "come to my senses", just like the Prodigal Son.
    SheilaB

     
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